Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Review: Baryshnikov and Barton

Baryshnikov was in Berkeley this weekend, and he brought with him a dozen of the most beautiful young dancers in the world, a troupe called Hell's Kitchen Dance, in part under the leadership of dancer and choreographer Aszure Barton.

The program began with Barton's Over/Come, a celebration of the suicidal delirium of fresh love set to a couple of tunes that seemed to combine the best of the American 1950s with Spanish jazz. The beautiful dancers, each and every one infatuated with a dozen other lucky youths, dropped to the floor with the ecstasy of Cupid's shots. Barton's vocabulary was instantly pleasing: comic, beautiful, a work for ensemble but intimate. Barton never allows the dancers to feel like a chorus; each maintains his own gesture and focus. Each is, in fact, deep in a role, although the work (like the world) is not directly narrative.

The second work, Years later, brought Baryshnikov to the stage, but also to the large screen behind him, which showed him dancing in sandy landscapes. As a document that will outlast his body, it might have value, but it was redundant and overwrought: close-ups of the dancer's majestic face, fades to the dancer too alone in a already-lonely landscape, double exposures forcing the dancer to meet himself. The choreography, by Benjamin Millepied, let itself be restricted by fears of the dancer's age. Later, the Baryshnikov's shadow danced against videos of a much younger, leaping dancer, sometimes for comic purposes. It was and is unnecessary now to view Baryshnikov as an "older" dancer. He still moves.

The final work was a happy return to Barton's choreography. Baryshnikov led the company through Vladimir Martynov's rapturous work for orchestra and solo violins, Come In. I was at this point most transported, and my memory is of a dozen beautiful, sad, and happy creatures moving with emotion and purpose while the violin reached slowly higher and higher. I was brought out of reverie during a solo for Baryshnikov in which he seemed to float in a rapid series of jumps and turns. It was a bravura solo executed with ease and modesty. Some of us clapped excitedly; others were perhaps too far gone in bliss to have awareness of their own mechanics.

The final applause: a steady house bringing the curtains up a staggering five or six times, the dancers smiling and laughing at the surprise of gratitude.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Beautiful


I was going to whine about my apartment psychoses, but how can I when there is this in the world?

Monday, June 05, 2006

News, and again News

I've been distracted and don't have internet access at home, so here is a summary of the last weeks by way of snippets from email conversations. Soon, I promise, I will abandon this secret diary and write about important things:

I'm waiting, waiting, waiting to find out if I'll be moving out to the ocean... God I hate moving, and I hate living (in apartments and houses).

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I'll be moving soon. I'm going to try to love the place I move to and make it my own. B. has already mentioned (as if he could not conceive of anything else) that he will help me . . . I told him I would be able to move everything myself but would like help making it cozy. He insisted on at least cleaning out cabinets and drawers and "wiping everything down." Most of the work needs to be done by me, but it was nice to hear. It really will be a challenge, after these nearly two years, to be alone, and off by myself way out there. (That really is people's response to that area: wide eyes and "Ooh, way out there!" Not quite as weird if I lived outside the city, like Berkeley.)

Mark my words, I'll have friends over to make music with my new piano (which I'll get in the next couple months), and I'll learn how to tend my garden!

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I want to develop pleasure in household things; you may have to coach me through them over the phone. (Especially cleaning the bathroom.) I'm mildly prepared; I excited about selecting furniture (some of which will come from yard sales and the street, which is a pretty common way to find and get rid of furniture around here) and decorations (Gail's having an open studio in a couple weeks, and I hope to find a colorful, musical painting of hers to put on my walls).

Secretly, I'm also looking forward to laying in my yard and getting a little brown, even though it leads to skin cancer. I don't know if you remember the small, moving rectangle of light from my house on the hill.

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I can't believe that I'll be moving tonight/tomorrow. I boxed things up this morning. B. has pledged himself to me tonight and tomorrow—even though I kinda want to move in by myself. He also said he hasn't decided what he wants to call me, but he likes when I call him "my darling." Just as an aside, we are freakishly bizarre when it comes to PDAs. It might make people uncomfortable. Fuck 'em. We curled up and took a nap in Golden Gate Park on Monday.

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I took yesterday off to move—actually started moving Wednesday evening. I thought B. was going to break up with me because I was super sweaty and neck-deep in my own materialism, but he insisted on going to my new place with me and helping me carry in things. Then we went to his house, where I showered, and he dressed me in his clothes and we walked over to Martuni's for live-piano karaoke (AKA amateur jazz). We decided we were boyfriends, had fun at karaoke, and then I spent the night for the first time.

Oh yeah, but I guess the important part is that my new place (though somewhat "far") is supercute. So much better than I could have imagined (based on what my mind was doing to my memory of the place).

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It's been a busy couple of days. I am entirely moved in; here's what happened: Wednesday night the leasing agent brought me the keys around 7, so I loaded up a car and went to pick up B., who insisted on going with me and helping me move in. (I was pretty sure he was going to dump me because I was feeling pretty insane and was very stinky and sweaty and had too many stupid boxes of stuff.) We drove across town and parked right in front of my new place; I unlocked and swung open the gate. B. gasped; the yard was cute. I opened the front door and . . . the apartment had metamorphosed! It was supercute and superclean. I was so relieved.

B. and I celebrated by going to Martuni's (live-piano karaoke). I was sweaty and stinky and in ugly moving clothes, but B. treated me to a shower and his own clothes—I imagine at that point I was a little like a retarded invalid. He took care of me. We decided we were boyfriends, and then spent the night together for the first time. Everyone slept well.

Next day I dropped him off at a doctor's appointment and I went back to my old place and took—painfully—three more carloads to the new place. For the last one, I mostly looked at the odd assortment of junk on the floor of my room and feared that I would never be able to do it. Then, suddenly, my car was full and my old house was empty. I showered in my new apartment and went to pick up B. (Our plan was for him to ride over with my last carload, but there was no room.) We walked around Dolores Park, near where I used to live, and then went to Thai food where we had had our first date exactly one month before. (Yes, I have become a highschooler again.) Went back to his place, listened to music, did things that highschoolers do on spring break, and went to sleep.

Tonight I go straight from work to Berkeley to play at the Claremont with Gail again. I'll get home late, put my little IKEA sofa-bed together, sleep, and then start arranging my house tomorrow (at which point I'm sure I will try to call you).

Now I'm off to work—sorry for the long narration; I think I needed to capture that.