Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Hysterical Paroxysm

ATTEND
Hysterical Paroxysm
November 29–December 10
PlAySPACE
CCA Graduate Gallery, San Francisco
Opening reception: December 2, 6–9 p.m.
Gallery hours: Tues.–Sat., 12–6 p.m.
Info: 415.551.9213
1111 Eighth St.





As far back as the ancient Greeks, hysteria was defined as a "natural" irrationality reserved to the fairer sex. Less than a century ago medical doctors still believed that hysteria was related to the female reproductive organs, and used hysterectomies to "calm" women suffering from mental, emotional, or psychological problems.

Collected by The A/V Club (a collective of SF-based media artists), Hysterical Women is an installation of hundreds of television and film clips. The clips, showing in an awkward amassment of televisions, represent a broad cross-cut of women as they are commonly portrayed in worldwide media through the last century—screaming, panicked, and helpless.

For Hysterical Women, The A/V Club surveyed the history of the moving image, collecting the ever-recurring image of women screaming, an act completely entrenched in the representation of women in popular media. On film, the hysterical woman, suffering from societal, religious, or self-imposed pressures, consistently and predictably loses control over her emotions.

The opening reception on December 2nd will be followed by a special Echo de Pensees presentation of live music and performance by Sixes and Garritt.

Curated by The A/VClub


CCA A/V CLUB Art Collective comprised of:

Keturah Cummings
Marcella Faustini
Skye Thorstenson
Lee Pembleton
Alex Lucas
Han Sun

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Another Casual Recital


December 4, 2005
4 p.m.
Berkeley, California

Mozart, Beethoven, Dvorak
Sonatas for Violin and Piano

Monday, November 21, 2005

Musical ladies

I dreamt about two musical women last night.

I had been afraid that I couldn't work with a music teacher again, that one tiny comment (as simple as "I wouldn't slow down quite so much there") might set off in me an antididactic insurgency. But that hasn't happened with Jill; instead, I'm happily two months into lessons with her, and I continue to be energized by her enthusiasm and helpful suggestions and strive to achieve the warmth and directness of her tone.

But part of me balks still at being a student again. Last night, unconscious while the dark shadows (free again) whispered through the apartment, I dreamt that Jill was lecturing me on how the fingers must be placed slightly differently on the keys for each note. There was a word for this technique: something like "buntha." I could see the skepticism on my face, in the way I held the flute away from me, as if to say I wanted no part of the instrument if it was so fickle. And I longed to move on, past this lesson, and get back to the joy of making sound.

I'm not proud of the dream, but I'm happy that the flute has made it to the night-realm. It seems alternately wonderful and ridiculous that I'm learning the flute. Just yesterday, listening to jazz in the car, I thought, "Now that really would have been crazy if I had decided to pick up the marimba. But if that's so crazy, then why isn't learning the flute crazy? Why isn't it just as arbitrary?" I still haven't completely convinced myself that learning marimba would have been just as worthwhile, and that it's just a matter of which instrument I feel the greater connection to.

But the fact is that I'm almost at the point where I should be wearing a button that says, "I'D RATHER BE PLAYING FLUTE." I still struggle to get a good sound, to get beyond the beginner's breathy, unfocused doot. But I am already excited at the possibilities: I read through some Faure songs, inaccessible to me by voice but mine by silver stick. And Handel sonatas, with their little scales and arpeggios and trills. All mine.

I have noticed in the last year and a half that I have stopped stopping the things I start. Among the crazy things I've picked up and stilly carry:

writing
meeting with a poetry group
keeping a blog
loving one guy
being a nonsmoker
rehearsing with a violinist friend every week
learning the flute

I also dreamt about my singing friend Anne, who was the first person I accompanied in Athens. We were performing a play, sorta an experimental improvisation based on one monologue she was to give at the end. The set for a small apartment had been set up in an outdoor courtyard. Anne's mother arrived, excited. I was nervous because I didn't know exactly what I was supposed to do.

A small audience had assembled, and the play began. Anne decided to take a shower. I was left in the wall-less living room, reading a paper. How long should I do this? I noticed people getting up, walking around, walking off. I folded up the paper, tore out shapes from the sides, opened it.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Another Musical Fable (in the old style)

The snow fell again, and with it fell also the muffled, mellow sounds of a violin. The old violinist had awakened at dawn as the first rays of sunlight bounced off the white landscape through his window, as he had done each winter day, each year. He bathed only every other day, but never bothering with a comb or a brush, his white bush of hair was equally dramatic on the days it received a wash and on the days it received but a run-through with his bow-hand. He abstained from breakfast, believing that he must develop a real hunger for his work, so it was on any day only a matter of minutes between the initial opening of his eyes and the tuning of his instrument.

The children busying themselves in the snow would not have known any of this, however. To them he was only a sound from the moment their mothers called them back in. They became accustomed to playing while he played. It was not exciting play early in the morning, but industrious, for the old man practiced his scales and arpeggios and other technical exercises then. The children, taking their cue from this, spent the morning building. Dividing into two groups, they would build barriers and forts. Everyone made snowballs and stored some behind the snowy barricades and others in secret places either behind a tree or buried beneath a thin layer of snow.

The older boys led the morning work. "Here, now—this isn't a wall," one would say, kicking at the weak snow. "It must be stronger," he would say, and wander off to work on his snowball collection. The younger builders would look at each other with question mark faces, for too often the reprimanding elder would be a member of the other team. But anxious for the second half of the play, the young builders would continue, drawing up the snow around them and building a bigger, better wall.

The old musician, had he known of the drama outside his window, would not have laughed or smiled at the children's frolic. He despised children as only old men can, and he attempted to keep his contact with them minimal. He thought of them only as potentials—potential conductors or pianists or violinists. He delighted only in young singers, whose pure voices he could only aspire to imitate with his instrument of wood and cat-gut. But children in the snow: they were nothing to him those mornings while his muse was with him.

The beginning of the second part of play was always distinct, like the light strains opening a scherzo. The old man broke his ascending and descending repetitions, and for two minutes there was silence from the house. The children did not know, and only took the opportunity to collect their secret snowballs and run behind their individual barriers to make final plans, but the violinist took these minutes not to rest but to rosin his bow and retune his instrument—neither of which was ever necessary. Once satisfied, the man replaced his instrument, took up his bow, and played.

The children sprung immediately from behind their fortresses with arms cocked. As the violent notes of the violin pierced the morning, a rainbow of white bullets sailed over the white earth, and it looked rather like the two armies were more juggling than fighting. The children yelled with glee, and a few bold ones ventured out from behind the walls with armloads of frozen ammunition. These brave souls were nearly always hit—not by an intentional attack but by one of the numerous balls that was thrown blindly from one side to the other—and most who felt that cold, harmless sting would cry out in exaggerated wails, clutch their powdery wounds, and fall to the earth. They were received by some of the younger boys who felt it their duty to act as medical officers and cart the dead and wounded from the field.

The children would play this game for the two hours that the man practiced his fiery solos, never waning in energy and excitement. No team ever successfully stormed the other's fortress; it was not allowed, for such would end the game too quickly. The children only fed their ark of snow, some gathering more snow, some forming new balls, and some throwing. Cries of "Aiiee!" matched the tones of the maestro's virtuosic passages.

Who knows what caused this day to be different? Perhaps there actually was no difference. Perhaps the play continued as it had all the days of all the winters—all the years before. Surely the old man's music was the same, and surely the children played the same game. But something did happen. The pattern was broken, and a solitary snowball errant found its way to the musician's window, knocked rather too forcefully, and welcomed itself. The violinist, startled, struck a wrong note; and, having placed himself entirely within the music, died with it.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Talented friend

Congratulations to Gail, who somehow finds time to love her family, learn Beethoven, and paint. She is featured on the November cover of The Monthly. We hope to put together a casual recital for the end of November, though I must confess we have added Mozart to the repertoire.